She Will Always Be There

When I do those things
Drugs, drinking, cutting
Im still not myself.
Maybe I just use her as an excuse to do them,
but I feel as if she takes over then.
The only difference is,
Im aware of her.
I never used to be.
Im not sure if I will remember everything I did as Kat.

Kat:
And I'll be watching her.
Watching out for her.
And if the time comes she needs complete escape,
I will walk for her.
Talk for her.
Take punishment in her place.
Something dont need to be remember.
And I will hold on to those things for her.
Some people believe they can make me go away,
and I'll pretent to let them do there job.
But I will always be the strongest part of her.
So I cant let her dispose of me.
I'll stay quiet,
no more than a dark shadow inside.
Thats what I'll be.
.....But we all know I cant do that,
I just have to much fun.