The reason kat is soo demanding and soo eiger to get out.. is.. cause your the alternit personality?
My boyfriend Matt said that too me.
The thought of that, well it really gets me thinking, and really fucking worried that he may be right. Kat is just yelling and screaming in my head that, yes its true. But I dont know if it is. It makes me wanna break down and cry cause I dont know what to believe. But shouldnt my birth name be me? Or is it just switched, Kat is really me. Like shes my real personality? Im just so lost with the thought.
I've been reading alot of books and just reading up on split personalitys. Like in one of the books a girl woke up and noticed who she really was, and who she was trying to be. So everything is just confusing the shit outta me. Somedays I just wanna leave, but Im not leaving Lucy and my friends and everyone else who still needs me around. I think I just need to go into another 3 day comma >.<
Nothing really makes sence anymore. The more you know, the less sence anything makes. I also think that if I have it easy at home, everyone else around me gets hell. So should I make my life hell to save everyone else? That be weird if that was true too. See Im just going on with this random shit now, I really dont know what Im saying half the time.
I really dont know who I am, and this kinda proves it even more. I just keep finding reason's to pull myself farther from who I am. Than to finding myself. Might take a life time to know the truth, but I probably never will know. So whats the point in looking for the answer? There probably isn't even a true answer, just some made up shit to make you feel better. Its probably just some lies that will come out saying that "your fine". I'll never really be fine. Its just gonna be another lie to cover up the truth thats really there.
Doesnt this just get you thinking?
No comments:
Post a Comment