I really dont understand how people can deal with me. How can they? When first of all I am is just some crazy bitch who comes out of know where and is just being seen everywhere. And judge how I am. Well they have no idea whats going on in my head, do they now?
What can people really see in me? When all I do is fuck up. Ever since I fucked up my own life, I just fuck up everyone else's. Maybe Im just not ment to be, like I feel as if Im half dead walking this world alone. I dont know if I should still be alive. I've been so close to death so many times. But I just wont die! Some days I just wish I never woke up, and pray that I dont have to go through another day.
I just want to drink this wasted life away. I tired to before, but that failed too. More like three times I did. What the hell is wrong with me? Do I just not belong? So I hide away from everyone. Maybe its the best thing to do. Is just to leave me alone.
No one understands me, and no one ever will. I just have to many damn issuses to deal with, and more come eachday.All people do is use and turn around and walk out on me. Its hard to believe when people say they'll be there for me. I know I will for you, as long as you dont push me away. I will never let go of you. Im the type of person that will put my whole life on hold just to help you back up on your feet again.
Its only up to the other person to let go. I wont fully till they do. I will always be there for you. I could care else about myself. What can you see buried inside of me.
How can someone understand me, when I dont even fully understand myself. I fight myself everyday, but you would never know it. I make no sence to myself.
Friends can know more about you than you yourself do. If you let them help you, find you. I'd love to get to know you Kat, maybe one day? (:
ReplyDeleteOh and since I won't post every freaking blog on here :P I like the poetry you write.
She's right, people are like a work of art. You can't judge yourself, like you can't judge your own work. You might think it's terrible, because you know you can do better. Or you might think it's great because you know how it got to be that way.
ReplyDeleteWhen was the last time you felt like that looking from the outside in?