Fucked Over..Again

Well aint life a bitch
Its just really hard to trust anyone now
Boyz more soo.

I should just give up on emotions
And people for awhile
Just not care
And live life day by day

Dont rush into anything
Your just gonna get hurt.
Be vague with people
Let it be an effert for them to be in your life.

Sorry if I become a bit of a bitch
Of course no one likes gettn hurt
But Im starting to get tired of peoples bullshit
And I need to look after myself for once..
..Yaa thats not gonna happen
But wateverss

I got my girls
Its all I need to pick myself up again
<3

Eminem - No Love

I Knew That Would Come,

For you to say it
& Really tell me how you feel.
To be honest with you.
I've always felt da same.
I didnt know how you felt about me,
So I never said anything.
But just gave you clues.

Shit everything over da years I've said is true.
How I'll always be there, no matter wat.
If you've done something soo stupid
I'll still love you.
It dont matter.
I do love you.
Always remember that.


Eminem - Going Threw Changes

Ps- Your my world girl <3

10 Figgy 5,

Next time you see me
Say,
"Watt upp Doggg"

If I talked to you last night,
You would know
Well maybe not even then
But anywayysss

I hate it when I know something is coming,
& I cant do anything to change it
Like you can try to work around it
But its not gonna be da same

Or waitn on someone
You cant force them to do something you want/need
Yet you can, but it wont be the same
Or the way you want it too be

Soo pretty much, it pisses me off when I cant do shit
& All I can do is sit there and wait

Everyday I look at all the different path my life could take
But why is it the one where Im at risk all the time
The one I want.

I think I just want people to let me run my own life
I can look after myself, trust.
But I want people to understand how I am as a person
Why I cant control my impulses

And for people to stop slackn
Tell me shit straight up
& Dont play this fuckin waitn game or any stupid games with me
Dont lead me onto something and then dip.
Dont piss me off
Dont test me
Get your shit together.


Drake - Find Your Love

(Watch da movie 8mile)

Trust,

Is something I cant rely in a lot of people.
& no matter what, I still seem to be getting fucked over.
So why bother right?

The more I stick around people, the less there is for me.
I find out shit that pisses me off
Or I knew the truth all along
But they never had the guts to say it.

Ya, theres alot I wish I could tell people
But I aint riskn my life to tell a story that haunts me.
Plus da bullshit in my life will never stop.
I know that shit for a fact.
Why when I can Im disappear'n
But that comes later on.

Oh and what really bothers me, is fuckin shit talkers.
Theres to many of them.
Just shut up and deal with your god damn shit.
And I hate how no one can take me serious.

I know alot of shit is gonna go down.
I'll be there for it, and for who ever needs me.
But dont think theres much emotion left in me.
There aint much left of me now.

Trust, is hard to get.
And once you lose it,
Have fun tryn to get it back.


Eminem - Space Bound

Im Sick & Tired Of,

Looking in the mirror and unable to see me
People bitching about life
Being controlled by everyone else
Hateing who I am
Always being put in the middle
Missing the people I cant or dont always see
People stealing and living my dreams
The stress of everything around me

Falling apart on people I love
Always wanting to drink, cut, or do drugs
People who think they understand me
Trying to be something Im not
Being in pain
Wishing time would stop
Thinking of my past

You not seeing all the pain Im in
You not realizing you caused it
You never calling me
You affecting everything I do
You not knowing who I am
You not there for me
You killing me slowly

Can you see that Im angry?


HIM- Drunk On Shadows

Been Falling Longer Then I Thought

Its sadly but true.
Its only when you cant fall asleep and lay there thinking about your whole life.
Thats when you really notice it.
I can still see myself falling at times.
I've become softer inside, more emotional.
All those years holding it inside, keeping myself together in a way.
Now Im just ready to fall apart, and just brake.
Will you be there when I lose it?

Everyone has a story,
And I wanna share a bit of mine.
Its my past. And theres nothing you can do about it.
But more I think about it, I dont want too.
This is where I used to be able and vent
But I dont want you to know me.
Maybe in awhile I will share some more.
Hint is, it all started in grade 6.

But I want to vent here without people "checking up on me"
Just leave me alone, because you'll never really know me
I wont let you in.
So back the fuck off.
You really dont want to deal with me.


Mudvayne- Happy?

These Constant Dreams,

That I keep on having,
They wake me up in the middle of the night crying or confused.
I think about them for the next few days, too a few weeks.
Why do dreams confuse the crap outta me like this.
I wish someone just knew EVERYTHING about dreams,
Like why we had that dream and what its telling us.
Cause shit, we know dream books are just fucking cracked out.

I keep on running away, or going on adventures.
I used to talk about just randomly taking off one day and just going everywhere.
Or to just go somewhere and hitch-hike to somewhere and back for a few weeks.
But it worrys me, like since Im still having those dreams, does it mean I still want too?
Is there something in me that wants to just run, start over, hide, or unhappy?
I always think about that shit over and over, maybe theres something missing?
But thinking of this just gets me worried and pissed off.

Running Away Dreams:
-Lucy always tends to be the first one too find me
-I run back to the people I try to forget about
-Im always being lead around like I have no control
-Its like I know where Im going and have been there before but I know I havent
-I start off running away with crying and bleeding
-Sometimes wish I was there since no one had control over me
-Always have green eyes in the dream and when I wake up

Adventure Dreams:
-Always with a random group of guys and maybe some chick or Lucy
-Running around towns I usually know but turn into somewhere else or the woods
-Go to restaurants and stores then steal shit
-Sleeping in abandoned places/things
-Doing dangerous life threating stuff
-Usually wake up with a few cuts