This Is How It Goes,

And everyday I think about it.
How you made me burn,
Turn,
Turn back into something most people hate.
Well now shes here to stay,
So oh damn,
Here we go again.

You really havent had a clue of wat damage you really done to me.
How deep you put me down,
Down into that dark blue,
You put me back into a place I hate,
So you force me to pace over,

Over everything I've done
Blamming me for wat has been done.
Pushn me down and then maken me look like a clown.
U have no idea how angry I've become.

But I broke away from you!
So I can continue this toke,
Now look whos poke'n back.
Tryn to get there control,
Dont hack,
CUZ I AINT EVER COMIN BACK!

Love me, hate me.
Want me, kill me.
MAKE UP UR MIND.
Dont think it,
Just fuckin say it.

Stop torcher'n my damn soul
Im just tryn to pull myself together,
And try to be whole.
Soul?
Wat soul,
Oh right I dont have one,
CUZ OF YOU.

You drive me fuckn crazy,
And make me go all hazzy.

I lay up for hours thinkn of you,
Wat we've been threw.
Then it hits me,
How much this really gets me.
Wat you fuckin bit me?
I cant sleep cuz of you!
God I could fuckin hate you!

All you did was guilt me,
And you think you could have built me?
Stop trippn yo
U aint ever havein me again!

You have no idea wat you really have done to me,
Wat toll you put on me.
Damn I would like to hit you with dis poll.
And say everything to ya face,
And to get outta this endless pace.

You have no idea wats comin at you,
Some of the things I could say to you.
But wats the point,
Everything would just ping off of you.

Just like everything we did
Damn you dont know how much I really hid.
Trust you still dont know me.


My Inspiration - Eminem

He Aint Comin Back,

No one is.
They dont want you,
Get that threw ya head.

No one loves you
They used too,
But all they do is use you!
Really they fucking hate you!

They talk behide your back,
And sell all ya fuckin crack.
..Wat crack.
Wat da fuck u sayn man?
YOUR THE ONE WHOS CRACKED!
Not me,
Its the whole damn world that is,

Shit.
Im just tryn to get by.
Im just livin day by day,
Hoping I survive.
And I know I will,
If you stay the fuck outta my life!

So your lost,
Confused,
Hurtn some more.
And you just dunno wat to do.
Sittn there wondering,
Why does it have to be you.

Your angry
Hate'n everything,
N' everything is hate'n back on you.
You snap
Ya snap
But no matter wat you do,
You just cant find a way to come back.

Theres no way out now,
Your trapped..

There killn you from inside out.
Lying straight to ya face,
You knew it,
And yet still stayed n' helped.
For years and years,
You did wat they said.
And yet they spit right in ya face!
They still fucked ya over!
No matter how much you've done,
They still fucked ya over!

Over,
Ya.
Its over.
Not gonna handle this bullshit,
And this shit you call love.
Cant stand it when you lie right in my face.
Do it again,
I dare ya.
And ya wont have a mothafuckn face.

Done with dis shit yo,
Just leave me be,
If ya know wats good for ya.
Peace.


My Inspiration - Eminem

Why Do I,

Hate my birth name so much?
I barly answer to it anymore.
I dont like hearing it wat so ever now.
Its really weird in a way.
But watevers.

& Why do I,
Think da best thing to do is
Save up all my money.
And dip?

I know I got it all here.
I can make the best outta it.
And with my own money coming in more.
I can buy STUFF that will make me happy.
But that could turn down hill too.

Dunno why I always wanna pick up and leave.
Cuz I know if I do, Im gonna wanna be fucked up 24/7,
Cuz of da shit I will get myself into.
Why am I always lookn for a shit ass life?
Cuz its more interesting?

But then again,
I dont really remember da shit I do day by day,
That is interesting.
And I got my people here, well somewat.
Only have a few that I care about.

If I took off.
Where would be the first place I'd go?


Movie - 8mile

Straight Up

Im tired of people who cant just say shit to my face,
And think its better from them to hide it from me.
They think I'll never find out,
& shit will just slide by.
Clearly you dont know me.

One way or another I do find out.
It could take sometime to get the truth out.
But I will get it.
So dont bother covering shit up.

Why So Serious?
Cuz thats the type of person I am.
For some reason its just hard for people to take me serious.
Im tired of that shit.
Wish people could stop disrespecting me.

Deal with it.
This is how I am.
Dont like it.
Get da fuck out.


Eminem - Talkin' 2 Myself

Fucked Over..Again

Well aint life a bitch
Its just really hard to trust anyone now
Boyz more soo.

I should just give up on emotions
And people for awhile
Just not care
And live life day by day

Dont rush into anything
Your just gonna get hurt.
Be vague with people
Let it be an effert for them to be in your life.

Sorry if I become a bit of a bitch
Of course no one likes gettn hurt
But Im starting to get tired of peoples bullshit
And I need to look after myself for once..
..Yaa thats not gonna happen
But wateverss

I got my girls
Its all I need to pick myself up again
<3

Eminem - No Love

I Knew That Would Come,

For you to say it
& Really tell me how you feel.
To be honest with you.
I've always felt da same.
I didnt know how you felt about me,
So I never said anything.
But just gave you clues.

Shit everything over da years I've said is true.
How I'll always be there, no matter wat.
If you've done something soo stupid
I'll still love you.
It dont matter.
I do love you.
Always remember that.


Eminem - Going Threw Changes

Ps- Your my world girl <3

10 Figgy 5,

Next time you see me
Say,
"Watt upp Doggg"

If I talked to you last night,
You would know
Well maybe not even then
But anywayysss

I hate it when I know something is coming,
& I cant do anything to change it
Like you can try to work around it
But its not gonna be da same

Or waitn on someone
You cant force them to do something you want/need
Yet you can, but it wont be the same
Or the way you want it too be

Soo pretty much, it pisses me off when I cant do shit
& All I can do is sit there and wait

Everyday I look at all the different path my life could take
But why is it the one where Im at risk all the time
The one I want.

I think I just want people to let me run my own life
I can look after myself, trust.
But I want people to understand how I am as a person
Why I cant control my impulses

And for people to stop slackn
Tell me shit straight up
& Dont play this fuckin waitn game or any stupid games with me
Dont lead me onto something and then dip.
Dont piss me off
Dont test me
Get your shit together.


Drake - Find Your Love

(Watch da movie 8mile)

Trust,

Is something I cant rely in a lot of people.
& no matter what, I still seem to be getting fucked over.
So why bother right?

The more I stick around people, the less there is for me.
I find out shit that pisses me off
Or I knew the truth all along
But they never had the guts to say it.

Ya, theres alot I wish I could tell people
But I aint riskn my life to tell a story that haunts me.
Plus da bullshit in my life will never stop.
I know that shit for a fact.
Why when I can Im disappear'n
But that comes later on.

Oh and what really bothers me, is fuckin shit talkers.
Theres to many of them.
Just shut up and deal with your god damn shit.
And I hate how no one can take me serious.

I know alot of shit is gonna go down.
I'll be there for it, and for who ever needs me.
But dont think theres much emotion left in me.
There aint much left of me now.

Trust, is hard to get.
And once you lose it,
Have fun tryn to get it back.


Eminem - Space Bound