Drugs

They take you over.
And it turns into a pattern
You do it once, then maybe again, then maybe some more
I’ll only do it once a week
Only with friends
Only 3 times a day
Now I’ve lost count

Less time with your family
The drugs drive you away
The monster calls to you
Swearing they love you more.
So you take that path
Continue doing more

School, you don’t know what that is anymore
You slept threw your classes
All your grades dropped
You cant catch up now
Your falling behind
And falling down.

You cant go anywhere without being high
Your losing everything, everyone, and yourself.
Your wasted, so is your life.


(PSA For Audio)

This Is How It Is:

Known you for 5 years
And all we had disappeared.
How did this ending come so near.

I trusted you for all those years
I would do anything for you
I busted myself for you
Now look at me everywhere.

Pieces of memories are starting to disappear.
I think I'm gonna lose u forever.
Cuz I know u lost me
I'm gone forever..

For The Next Few Years,

I will slowly die
Hoping I will recover

2 more years of nonsense
But will I be able to leave even after?
Am I strong enough
Will I speak up
Will I get out

But is that really the end of things?
Or the start of a new hell?
Will it ever stop?

I'm continued to be stuck in this abused world

I'm hoping she will know how to save me
I hope she can deal with me
Will she be enough,
Or will I push away?

Will I last that long to keep sane?
Or am I already insane?



--Dedicated to woman stuck in abusive relationships.--

Going No Where..

I watched u change
Watched u fall slowly

I hate crying for u
And u don't even know it

I'm tired of being hurt
In pain
Being strong for everyone all the time

Im scared to face day by day
The thought of u breaks me

I can't breathe
I feel un-needed
Might as well throw me to the ground
Feels like u already put me there

I have no idea wat to do with u
Make up ur mine
Want me around?
Or not
What am I to u?
A phase.

Don't be dragging this longer than it has too

Fck You, I'm Alive

Noticing…

How much better I am without you
How much you hurt me & what you put me through
How you put me down everyday
How much I hated myself & life
How much I hate you
How I now have anxiety

Why did I stay with you?

How much happier I am now without you
How you helped me find myself
How you shaped me
How alive I am now
How I enjoy my life

Because of you…

I’m haunted, but yet better.
Im learning what true love is
I like girls alot better
I found my lover
I know what really matters
I want to really live my life
I know you cant trust everyone
I know its hard to forget

Because of you, Life is so much better

I Look Like A Dead Person,

Someone I don't know
The someone that used to be me
Imma burn every journal that reps wat I used to be
I don't need anyone knowing who I used to be

Even if that was for the better
I don't know her
So it doesn't even matter
I don't wanna try to remember
Who I am is me now
That's wat matters

Wanna buy a bottle of jack for all the wrong reasons
I don't wanna go back to how I used to handle things
Your hack'n at me
Bringn me down
Get away from me

Can't remember how life used to be.
The longer ur out,
the more I don't want to know.
Maybe its meant to be that u shouldn't be near me
Don't even talk to me

This is ur loss
Not mine



PS- I wrote this a month or 2 ago. Was sitting around so just posted it now

Grasp Me

Hold me
Love me
You do everything right to me
I know u'd never hurt me
But I'll always still fear it
Even thou I know
That pain aint near

I couldn't live without u
Don't think I ever will be able too
My world would go fable without u
I can't bare being without u
I'd rip out every hair for u
People should never dare to interfere
For I won't care
I'll never will let it happen

I was never in shame when I'm with u
Its the greatest thing I could feel inside
Why can't people see how lucky I am
Do I really have to throw them away to show how much I love u?
I'll never let u go
You could put the biggest bet on that

I'm so torn without u
I was born to be with u
I know it when I see u
I love you
And that's a fact
I'm lost without u
I'll go no where without u
All I got is u
I love you