I Look Like A Dead Person,

Someone I don't know
The someone that used to be me
Imma burn every journal that reps wat I used to be
I don't need anyone knowing who I used to be

Even if that was for the better
I don't know her
So it doesn't even matter
I don't wanna try to remember
Who I am is me now
That's wat matters

Wanna buy a bottle of jack for all the wrong reasons
I don't wanna go back to how I used to handle things
Your hack'n at me
Bringn me down
Get away from me

Can't remember how life used to be.
The longer ur out,
the more I don't want to know.
Maybe its meant to be that u shouldn't be near me
Don't even talk to me

This is ur loss
Not mine



PS- I wrote this a month or 2 ago. Was sitting around so just posted it now

Grasp Me

Hold me
Love me
You do everything right to me
I know u'd never hurt me
But I'll always still fear it
Even thou I know
That pain aint near

I couldn't live without u
Don't think I ever will be able too
My world would go fable without u
I can't bare being without u
I'd rip out every hair for u
People should never dare to interfere
For I won't care
I'll never will let it happen

I was never in shame when I'm with u
Its the greatest thing I could feel inside
Why can't people see how lucky I am
Do I really have to throw them away to show how much I love u?
I'll never let u go
You could put the biggest bet on that

I'm so torn without u
I was born to be with u
I know it when I see u
I love you
And that's a fact
I'm lost without u
I'll go no where without u
All I got is u
I love you

Just Try Me One More Time

Dare u to push me
Test me
Let's see how far I'll go
Quick think times runnin low
Oh, here we go
Tik-tock ur done

There's a reason why I don't tell u anything
No matter wat season
Things won't change with u
Quit maken me hang here
We're not gonna be
Cuz u were never there for me

You don't even know how bad ur hurtn me
You'll never understand the person I was born to be
Let me live this life that is mine
Its not ur fault with how I am
I chose to be dis way

So leave be for u get hurt
Cuz its not gonna be me dis time
I'm not gonna let anyone get in my way
U can't force me to be something u want
I'll never know wat I want if u keep pestering me

I Cant Lie To Myself

These thoughts have to die
There just rippin at me
Its like constant drippin pain

There never enough time to tell u
Everything I've ever felt
How could I really be this blind
And not see it was always u
I've always loved u

I gotta quit this screaming in my head
I can't win a battle that's against me
There's just no way around it
And the war has just begun
How much can I handle?
I'm getting closer to the edge, dare you to push me.

No matter how I look at it
It will always stay the same
Some people really do never change
U can't convince me
That things will get better
My head doesn't work that way

I take everything the wrong way
& see how everyone is against me
But really there just trying to be friendly
The closer I let someone in, the more I'm hurting myself
Trust.. Doesn't exist
Its dead and gone
Like me

Cant Talk

Words refuse to come out
I'd rather break down and snap
Then tell half the shit u don't know about
Then it hit me
U still don't know me

Better that way
Cuz who knows when I'll be put away
Better to stay masked
Than having to be asked
"Who are u"
How can I answer
When I'll never know

I'll be lost in this room forever
So toss me aside
And leave me behide
I'm used to it
Must be from u always doing it

I grit my teeth when I think of u
So when I go to say something
I'll bite through my lip
Or rip at my chest
Just a way to beat the stress of breathing around u

Crown Me For All Dis Pain

I've grown into something I can't explain
All I do is drown in your words
Words that pierce deeper than a sword

I aint dumb, I'm just going numb
Wish a lil more than I should be
Everyday is gettin worse
So I curse for that sun to rise
To that other surprise in front of me

I can't stand people
Not alone sober
I can't function anymore
So stop poor'n into me
No one can see how much I really mask of me

No matter how hard u try to convince me
I can't trick myself into thinking its right
So don't be such a hick to me
It will get u no where

Not Even Sleepn

Barely eattin
Now this is just cheatn
On this thing we call life
Now keep stair'n at this abyss

You know why ur this way
But u can't pay up to stay this way
Its taking u over
But u know u'd never leave ur lover
You can't look back now
Keep on running
But it won't be long till u'll be back

Its got a hold of u
But ur to happy to let go of ur monster
U just keep on change'n

Sober now
Scratchin ur eyes out
Matchn ur scars now
Hurry get to a bar
But that's not strong enough
So we have to take another
Walk with the monster