Do You Still Think About Me?

Cuz I do everyday
Even after how your hurt me

But I dont hold on to madness
We need to move forward
But can we do that together?
Or is this toward the end?

Im tired of all these mixed messages your sending me
I dont know what you want from me.
I want this to be real again
Something more than the last time.

I wonder what you really think of me.
Am I just a side gurl?
Am I a hit and run.

Everyone tells me not to go back
But you got a hold on me.

Laying Down Looking At The Ceiling,

Knowing that I have this feeling.
And it feels so good.
Keeps me outt the hood.
Its a feeling you cant even describe.
You'd have to be that person to really look inside.

Dont want this feeling to go away
Why does everything feel like its slipping away?

You dont even know what I have done for you
I've dropped everyone just to be with you
Stopped my old habits
Making every second count when Im with you

Im shaken'
Break'n
At the thought of losing you
Look at all the things I bought for you
I wont let anyone stand in my way.
You cant just hand your love away.

Needs & Wants

Need to keep moving forward.
Stop lookn back.
I need out.
Need to be free.
Need to love.
Need to live.

I can hear it in her voice.
I can hear her wanting to scream for help.
She wants out.




(Unfinished)

10 Second Free Writing

Movies

Something we can relate too.
Something we want to be in
Something not real




Music

We listen
We relate
It moves us
It can do many things to us

It can control our emotions
Our thoughts


Dating

Love or lust
Real or fake
Do we really know that person well enough?
Can we trust them long enough to stay with forever?
Will this be the one?



Photography

Passion
Seeing something that is not
Travel to get the unseen
Hoping to please many

Drugs

They take you over.
And it turns into a pattern
You do it once, then maybe again, then maybe some more
I’ll only do it once a week
Only with friends
Only 3 times a day
Now I’ve lost count

Less time with your family
The drugs drive you away
The monster calls to you
Swearing they love you more.
So you take that path
Continue doing more

School, you don’t know what that is anymore
You slept threw your classes
All your grades dropped
You cant catch up now
Your falling behind
And falling down.

You cant go anywhere without being high
Your losing everything, everyone, and yourself.
Your wasted, so is your life.


(PSA For Audio)

This Is How It Is:

Known you for 5 years
And all we had disappeared.
How did this ending come so near.

I trusted you for all those years
I would do anything for you
I busted myself for you
Now look at me everywhere.

Pieces of memories are starting to disappear.
I think I'm gonna lose u forever.
Cuz I know u lost me
I'm gone forever..

For The Next Few Years,

I will slowly die
Hoping I will recover

2 more years of nonsense
But will I be able to leave even after?
Am I strong enough
Will I speak up
Will I get out

But is that really the end of things?
Or the start of a new hell?
Will it ever stop?

I'm continued to be stuck in this abused world

I'm hoping she will know how to save me
I hope she can deal with me
Will she be enough,
Or will I push away?

Will I last that long to keep sane?
Or am I already insane?



--Dedicated to woman stuck in abusive relationships.--