Just Try Me One More Time

Dare u to push me
Test me
Let's see how far I'll go
Quick think times runnin low
Oh, here we go
Tik-tock ur done

There's a reason why I don't tell u anything
No matter wat season
Things won't change with u
Quit maken me hang here
We're not gonna be
Cuz u were never there for me

You don't even know how bad ur hurtn me
You'll never understand the person I was born to be
Let me live this life that is mine
Its not ur fault with how I am
I chose to be dis way

So leave be for u get hurt
Cuz its not gonna be me dis time
I'm not gonna let anyone get in my way
U can't force me to be something u want
I'll never know wat I want if u keep pestering me

I Cant Lie To Myself

These thoughts have to die
There just rippin at me
Its like constant drippin pain

There never enough time to tell u
Everything I've ever felt
How could I really be this blind
And not see it was always u
I've always loved u

I gotta quit this screaming in my head
I can't win a battle that's against me
There's just no way around it
And the war has just begun
How much can I handle?
I'm getting closer to the edge, dare you to push me.

No matter how I look at it
It will always stay the same
Some people really do never change
U can't convince me
That things will get better
My head doesn't work that way

I take everything the wrong way
& see how everyone is against me
But really there just trying to be friendly
The closer I let someone in, the more I'm hurting myself
Trust.. Doesn't exist
Its dead and gone
Like me

Cant Talk

Words refuse to come out
I'd rather break down and snap
Then tell half the shit u don't know about
Then it hit me
U still don't know me

Better that way
Cuz who knows when I'll be put away
Better to stay masked
Than having to be asked
"Who are u"
How can I answer
When I'll never know

I'll be lost in this room forever
So toss me aside
And leave me behide
I'm used to it
Must be from u always doing it

I grit my teeth when I think of u
So when I go to say something
I'll bite through my lip
Or rip at my chest
Just a way to beat the stress of breathing around u

Crown Me For All Dis Pain

I've grown into something I can't explain
All I do is drown in your words
Words that pierce deeper than a sword

I aint dumb, I'm just going numb
Wish a lil more than I should be
Everyday is gettin worse
So I curse for that sun to rise
To that other surprise in front of me

I can't stand people
Not alone sober
I can't function anymore
So stop poor'n into me
No one can see how much I really mask of me

No matter how hard u try to convince me
I can't trick myself into thinking its right
So don't be such a hick to me
It will get u no where

Not Even Sleepn

Barely eattin
Now this is just cheatn
On this thing we call life
Now keep stair'n at this abyss

You know why ur this way
But u can't pay up to stay this way
Its taking u over
But u know u'd never leave ur lover
You can't look back now
Keep on running
But it won't be long till u'll be back

Its got a hold of u
But ur to happy to let go of ur monster
U just keep on change'n

Sober now
Scratchin ur eyes out
Matchn ur scars now
Hurry get to a bar
But that's not strong enough
So we have to take another
Walk with the monster

You'll Appreciate Me More When I'm Gone,

Oh wait Im already am gone
Long gone
So far gone u can't even see me
But ur blind as can be
U see right threw me

U can't change
And either can I
We are who were meant to be
History repeats itself
You treated me like a slave
And u wondered why I didn't behave

Why should I trust u
U must be insane to think I would
u left us
Now I'm leaving u
I can't believe what u put me threw
Who would have knew

Just say one thing to me
Just lie to me
Tell me everything will be alright
Even thou u know it won't be
I guess there's gonna be a lot of things to die with

People hate on the things they don't understand
We are who we are, even if we forget
So stop being so broken and say ur truth
Stop living in fear
Cuz I'm still here

This Aint A Hunch,

Touch her again
I dare ya
I might care for ya
But I'll still kill ya

U clearly don't know how much she means to me
Not even near close to wat u think
Here lett'em post it to ya

I love her so much that it hurts
Its -22 and I'm still thinkn of u
I can't get my mind off u
Who would have known, it would have be me and u

I'm sorry I demote myself
I just don't know to except myself
Ur the only one that does

I want this forever
No bullshit there
Imma change to be a better person
Just for u