Im Sick & Tired Of,

Looking in the mirror and unable to see me
People bitching about life
Being controlled by everyone else
Hateing who I am
Always being put in the middle
Missing the people I cant or dont always see
People stealing and living my dreams
The stress of everything around me

Falling apart on people I love
Always wanting to drink, cut, or do drugs
People who think they understand me
Trying to be something Im not
Being in pain
Wishing time would stop
Thinking of my past

You not seeing all the pain Im in
You not realizing you caused it
You never calling me
You affecting everything I do
You not knowing who I am
You not there for me
You killing me slowly

Can you see that Im angry?


HIM- Drunk On Shadows

Been Falling Longer Then I Thought

Its sadly but true.
Its only when you cant fall asleep and lay there thinking about your whole life.
Thats when you really notice it.
I can still see myself falling at times.
I've become softer inside, more emotional.
All those years holding it inside, keeping myself together in a way.
Now Im just ready to fall apart, and just brake.
Will you be there when I lose it?

Everyone has a story,
And I wanna share a bit of mine.
Its my past. And theres nothing you can do about it.
But more I think about it, I dont want too.
This is where I used to be able and vent
But I dont want you to know me.
Maybe in awhile I will share some more.
Hint is, it all started in grade 6.

But I want to vent here without people "checking up on me"
Just leave me alone, because you'll never really know me
I wont let you in.
So back the fuck off.
You really dont want to deal with me.


Mudvayne- Happy?