She's bleed out her pain

She's drank till she can't remember 

She's snorted holes in her brain

She's puked the stress away

She hasn't gambled, but what's the need? When she's already gambling her life away.

Suddenly She Gets Weak,

 Hides under her blankets and doesn't speak. 

Just thinks. 

And then sinks into her darkness, her deep blue. 

Hoping he will pull her out, she waits.

She knows its not right to be there, yet in a way it's comforting her. 

She knows she strong, but tends to be tired of being strong for everyone and herself. 

She knows she'll find her way. 

When I Look At You

I feel regret

Not me. You.

You have lost everything good around you

Now you try and fill the empty holes with anything bad.

You've completely lost yourself

I'm the only one that knows you

Yet I nothing about you 

How much of your life has been a lie?

How many times have you lied to me?

Funny this is.

I'm you.

Im Still Hurt,

And  a little upset.
From you, cause I let myself trust you,
I had all the signs not too.
Your a stuck you snob,

Never cared about anyone but yourself,
Yet never cared for yourself.
Drank and drive
Gave me a bracelete full of lies.

If I saw you on the street
I would walk right past you,
I wouldn't be smiling cause I saw you.
It would be cause Im happy Im not with you.

You always told me you were "well known".
We lived in the same hood and I never heard of you.
Imma put some shame on you,
Cause I left for 6years and Im STILL known with a good name,
Unlike you.

The Person You See Now

Is the person I've became to be.
This person has been hidden in me.
Im something you hate.
 Im sorry your the fake.
But for everyones sakes.
 Look into the mirror and see the snake.

I've always known what I'd turn into in the end.
I wont watch myself burn and bend for you.

So turn around and keep walking.
 I wont be following you.
 This is my path to walk.
And its gonna be without you.
So go take a bath, and just relax.
Cause,

 Deep down I know.

 I'll always be that gurl with the mask.
 That will never change.
 For the things that have made me, me.
 I'll push away cause
 I dont want to lose someone close
 Cant even look in the mirror without somehow hating myself.
I'll always find some stupid reason.
 Cause every season seems to have a memory.

Yo These Gurlz

They're all drama 

I've had enough of this.. 

You call yourself a friend 

Yo fuck you! 

You'd try'd thrown my man in the bin. 

I never saw you as a friend

 Second I saw you I wanted to brawl you. 

 I have no trust in you 

 Or anyone thats around you 

Im not doing this again 

 Im not wasting our time again 

 I dont wanna give you hope when I see non 

 Ya, so I have no trust in you. 

 So good luck to you. 

 Cause I dont give a fuck about you. 

 You always threaten to hit me and abuse me. 

 But I always bit my lip and unfused me. 

How could you do this to me, 

 You dont even see what your doing to me 

So stop accusing me! 

 I had to let you go 

So I was able to let myself grow

 I cant lean on you anymore 

Your just not my scene anymore.

Ya We Had It All

But your the one that made it fall
All I did was think of you
Hide the bad
Gave the good
But you were never part of da hood

Whenever your back around
All my emotions just hit
Then it turns into a fit
Which makes me wanna split

In your new gurlfriends face
Haha
Who would knew it end up like dis
Oh trust you knew dis
So now you make me hiss

Your still the same
And a lil bitch
I need to get off this hitch
Before I get bit

I know you still miss me thou
You told me so
So tell ur gurlfriend your sold
To me
Cuz really you knew
The biggest mistake was leaven me